Sunday, August 10, 2025

"What are you going to do if you’re God?"

    "What are you going to do if you are God?"    

    Ridiculous idea?

    But why would you feel that way? 
    Seriously. Why?


    "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
    Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
    It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us." 
Marianne Williamson

    “So long as one is merely on the surface of things, they are always imperfect, unsatisfactory, incomplete. Penetrate into the substance & everything is perfect, complete, whole.” Philip Kapleau. “The Zen of Living and Dying. A Practical and Spiritual Guide.” Shambhala, 1998. 

    Alan Watts 65 years ago argued “Everybody operates on certain basic assumptions but very few people know what they are." Below, Alan Watts"The Constitution of Nature." Philosophy: East and West. Program 28. 1960. https://www.organism.earth/library/document/constitution-of-nature 

    "The high civilizations of the world have produced three different views of the constitution of nature, of the physical universe. I call them respectively: nature as a construct, nature as a drama, and nature as an organism

    The
 first view, nature as a construct, has until very recently been characteristic of the Western world. The view of nature as a drama has been largely characteristic of India. And finally, of nature as an organism, has been characteristic of the Far East. I’d like to compare these three views and point out certain of their advantages, disadvantages, and the ways in which they complement each other.
    Our thinking about the world is strongly influenced by analogies that are almost hidden. They are so far back in the history of the thought of any given civilization or culture that they are taken as something more than analogies. They are taken almost as logical patterns. And they are basic to our grammar, to our common sense, and to our attitudes in ways that often go unsuspected

    Why don’t we start with the Western view of the world as a construct. The physical world has historically, in the West, been looked upon as a created or manufactured article; the world of a creator external to the world. And this view has continued in many ways even after the rise of deism in the eighteenth century and the general tendency of the scientist to dispense with the hypothesis of the creator. The idea still remains that the world is a construct, analogous to a machine, and indeed obeying laws or plans in the same way as a machine obeys a blueprint, even though the law-giver and the planner himself seems to have disappeared.
    The basic metaphor, though, underlying this is not so much the machine as the work of clay: the pot or the modeled figure. For, as you know, it is said in the Book of Genesis that the lord god created Adam out of the dust of the ground, and breathed the breath of life into his nostrils. And so our language, our poetry, is full of allusions to the fact that we are really, after all, clay. 
    And because of this figure, it is fundamental to our common sense that the world is formed matter — the form being the shape of the pot, the matter being the clay. And thus we think of life as being basically something done to a medium. The medium is stuff: a kind of formless and of itself inert and unintelligent goo, which requires an external agency to give it form and intelligence and life.
    And naturally, because we have thought this way ((materialisticallydualistically)) for so long, it’s a terribly difficult idea to abandon—to get out of our heads the notion that, in the same way that tables are made of wood and houses of stone, so we tend to think that trees are made of wood and mountains of stone and people of flesh, and all of it eventually reducing itself to the primordial goo, the universal clay, the primal matter, the formless original water over which the spirit of god is said to have moved in the beginning of all time. 
    Now, beyond the idea of the world as a work of pottery lies the more sophisticated idea of the world as a mechanism in this Western view of the world as a construct. As soon as men began to understand mechanical principles, it became extraordinarily convenient to make analogies between various types of machinery and things to be found in the world. And it is really upon this analogy that the great achievements of Western technology have hitherto been based. And it’s really very difficult to think that we could have devised our technology, and that our practical sciences could have made such progress, without the idea of the analogy between the world and a constructed machine
    You see, one of the most fundamental things about a machine is that it is an assemblage of parts. And the successful measurement and description of nature depends upon the calculus, upon reducing it to parts. You know, the word “calculus” originally meant “pebbles,” and pebbles were one of the oldest methods of calculating: counting pebbles. In a funny kind of association of words, calculus is also calculating in the sense of having a calculating attitude; scheming. And scheming is associated with turning things to calculae, or stones. It is a sort of killing of the world, reducing it from the living to the dead, from the organism to the machine—but nevertheless it has had the most marvelous consequences so far as we’re concerned. And the cultures which thought of nature by analogy with drama and by analogy with an organism did not produce the technology that we in the West produced.  

    Let us contrast the other attitudes: the Indian attitude of the world as a drama. In Hindu thought, the world is not thought of as being made or constructed by god, but as being actually god himself playing a game. The idea of one single divine actor who is playing all the parts of all the creatures in the world, imagining himself to be them —assuming, as it were, myriads of masks, behind which there is simply one wearer of the mask. In "The Masks of God" Joseph Campbell contrasts the way in which the myth of the one who became two, the one that became many, has gone in two quite different directions. Beginning in ancient Sumeria (which constitutes, as it were, a sort of cultural watershed), it has flowed eastwards in one way and westwards in another

    To the East, the idea that the one (the godhead, in other words) split itself and dismembered itself into many parts quite voluntarily, and thus became the world as a play

    To the West, the theme of the one who became many is different, because (as he points out in the Book of Genesis) it is not the divine who becomes male and female, it is the creature. In the Upanishads—say the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad—the divine Self is described as saying in the beginning of time, “Let me become two,” and he splits into male and female, and thus generates the world. But in the Book of Genesis it is not the godhead who splits, it is man, the creature, who is split into Adam and then into Eve. But thus, in the Eastern world, we have the dramatic view—in India in particular. And although it’s interesting to note that in, say, the writings of the great philosopher Shankara and others, you very often encounter the analogy of the potter or of pots as representing the world. The roles are reversed. Clay is used as the symbol for the divine reality. Just as pots are all made of clay, or as jewels are all made of gold, so all things in the world are of one divine substance, which is of the nature of the godhead, or Brahman. It’s interesting, the different use of the simile.
    And so, from the standpoint of the dramatic view of the universe, all the divisions & distinctions of the world are looked upon as being a kind of as-if. They are in play. They are not quite serious

    And
 this contrasts very sharply with what has been the characteristic ((dualistic)) Western view: that the distinctions in the world are the most important things about it, that they are deeply serious. The distinction of good and evil is an eternal distinction, as is the distinction between the creator and the creature. The world in this view is not a drama. It  is played not by actors, but by what we call real individuals, even real persons—although, funnily enough, as I suppose you know, the word “person” is originally persona: the megaphone mask worn by actors in classical Greek drama.

    Then, thirdly, there is the organic view characteristic of China. In this, there is no real thought of there being a divine creator or a divine actor behind the world, but rather the world is thought of as being self-moving & self-creating. The word for nature in Chinese means “what is of itself so.” When, in the West, a child asks its mother, “Who made me?” and she replies, “Darling, god made you,” and the child asks, “But who made god?” she has to say, “Nobody made god.” And that is a great puzzle to the child who thinks of the world as a construct. And it may be explained to the child, if you like, that god makes himself; he exists of himself, because he is existence

    There
 is a certain sense in which the Chinese view is fundamentally almost anarchical—or, if you don’t like that word, you could call it democratic. A world which is self-governing—not even through a president, but self-governing in every way. ... which moves itself in the same way as you and I move our fingers without directing them in the sense that we know exactly what we’re doing and how we move them (we don’t)."

    NOW, 65 years later, we have an EXCEPTIONALLY FINE summary of how we have evolved beyond rule by barbaric force to all individuals (potentially) living in attunement with the cosmos
    A few excerpts from Arabella
 ThaïsAttunement as Governance: A New Political Possibility. The End of Hierarchy, the Dawn of Sovereignty.” https://www.kosmosjournal.org/kj_article/attunement-as-governance-a-new-political-possibility/

    "The world was viewed as inert, mechanical, & mute. In such a cosmos, control becomes necessary—an external force imposed upon the otherwise unruly
    But
 if the universe is alive, conscious, & self-organizing — as mystics, complexity theorists, and post-materialist scientists increasingly affirm — then governance as enforcement becomes obsolete. A deeper model must emerge.

    Order does not require laws. It requires resonance. This is evident in the natural world: ecosystems, galaxies, human consciousness itself. There is structure, but it is not forced. There is hierarchy, but it is dynamic, fractal, and non-coercive. These systems organize through patterns of self-similarity, feedback, & relational intelligence
    Therefore, any model of governance that fails to reflect the actual metaphysical conditions of the universe is not only oppressive—it is inefficient. It is maladaptive. A politics of force is the symptom of a civilization that does not yet trust its own source
    If we accept that the cosmos is psyche — structured consciousness — then the political must become the art of attunement, not the science of enforcement.

    This is the paradox: Anarchy is not the breakdown of order, but the maturation of it.

    In the 17th and 18th centuries, the so-called pirate utopias—from Madagascar’s Libertalia to the floating cities of the Caribbean—offered living examples of anarchic coherence. These were not lawless zones, but radically self-organised societies governed by codes of mutual agreement, shared spoils, elected leadership, and often racial and gender egalitarianism unthinkable in the empires they subverted.

    Anarchist philosopher Hakim Bey resurrected these spaces as what he called Temporary Autonomous Zones. The Temporary Autonomous Zone (TAZ) is a fleeting pocket of liberation—a territory of freedom in time & space, where hierarchical control is momentarily suspended and replaced by spontaneous, decentralised order. The TAZ is not a static utopia—rather, it is ephemeral, ecstatic, emergent, and arises in the cracks of empire—in festivals, secret societies, pirate enclaves, desert rituals, rave cultures, and sacred gatherings***. It resists capture because it is non-cartographic: a zone of resonance, not regulation

    (((
*** On a week-long silent meditation retreat at Insight Meditation Society in Barre MA, 20 years ago or so, early on somebody had found a solid gold wrist watch and pinned it on the announcement board. It stayed there untouched for the entire week
    While entirely
 silent, with even eye contact generally avoided at such retreats, a remarkable sense of intimacy spontaneously arises between all participants by the end of the retreat, despite the fact that most participants had never met.  
    To
 really test this phenomenon, at the end of one such retreat, I once intentionally went over to two specific people to chat & get to know them. I picked them because at first glance, at the beginning of the retreat, I had judged them as the least attractive. Now, chatting with them at the end of the retreat, I couldn't believe what fine human beings they were. We are capable of INFINITELY more intelligent, wise, loving & effective way of relating to ourselves, others & the cosmos!)))

    In this sense, the TAZ is a model of anarchic advent—not a total revolution, but a sovereign moment. A glimpse of what becomes possible when we stop waiting for permission and begin to live from coherence now
    As Bey writes: “The TAZ is like an uprising which does not engage directly with the State, a guerrilla operation which liberates an area (of land, of time, of imagination) and then dissolves itself to re-form elsewhere.” 
    In biology, we see similar nodes of coherence in swarms & flocks—patterns of grace and coordination emerging without a single commander. 
    This is not chaos. It is emergent order—a coherence that arises from within, not imposed from above. In complexity science, such systems are called self-organizing. Their intelligence is not centralized but embedded in every node. The mycelial network, the blockchain, the ant colony, the neural net: all are examples of distributed intelligence that outperforms hierarchy
    In an anarchic society, the leader is not the one with the most control, but the one with the most alignment—the one who is so attuned to the deeper frequency of the Real that others orient around them effortlessly, not out of obedience but recognition
    This is how the cosmos leads. Not with domination—but through radiance
.

    ... when beings are unshackled from repressive systems, and attuned to the inner source, they act in service to divine order.
    Christ was not a revolutionary against Rome—he was a vibrational insurgent, subverting the very metaphysics upon which empire rests. His leadership was anarchic in the truest sense: not the assumption of power, but the disruption of its necessity
    In this light, Jesus becomes the prototype of the Anarch—the figure who dissolves external rulership not by force, but by rendering it obsolete through the radical coherence of divine being.


    To live anarchically is to live from kairos, not chronos—from the sacred time of right alignment, not the mechanical tick of the clock. It is to act, as Christ did, from impulse, not from protocol—from the soul’s timing, not the calendar’s. To live from kairos is to become temporally sovereign. One ceases to move through time as sequence, and begins to modulate time as frequencya vibratory reality shaped by alignment, not duration. When time is understood in this way, individuation is no longer a psychological journey within time—it is a re-tuning to time’s deeper structure.


    Individuated, anarchic beings are not merely free—they are temporally generative. Their presence carries the power to dislodge timelines, to open unexpected pathways, to bend probability. In this sense, they function like strange attractors in a chaotic system—subtle but catalytic forces around which reality reorganises itself. Not through force, but through the coherence of their inner architecture.

    They do not push history forward. They change the pattern altogether.

    In anarchy, freedom is not deferred—it is not something granted by the future, but something activated in the now through resonance with higher-order time. The anarchic subject becomes a temporal node—a being whose very presence rewires the causality of the world.

    This shift in time is not abstract—it is the scaffolding of a new civilization, one rooted not in deadlines and duties, but in destiny and divine attunement."
    Arabella Thaïs “Attunement as Governance: A New Political Possibility. The End of Hierarchy, the Dawn of Sovereignty.” https://www.kosmosjournal.org/kj_article/attunement-as-governance-a-new-political-possibility/ I HIGHLY RECOMMEND READING this ENTIRE SUPERB ESSAY.

 

    "I am, by the sheer complexity of my structure, far more evolved than any system which I can imagine. ... you (too) are the most complex thing that has yet been encountered in the cosmos and you can’t figure you out." Alan Watts "The Process of Life" (https://www.thealpinereview.com/articles/alan-watts-the-process-of-life )

     We have a GREAT DEAL to learn

    “In this choiceless, never ending flow of life
    There is an infinite array of choices.
    One alone brings happiness -
    To love what is.”
Dorothy Hunt

    "When you know you’re the ocean, you’re not afraid of the waves.” Tara Brach

    "Life is like music for its own sake. We are living in an eternal now, and when we listen to music we are not listening to the past, we are not listening to the future, we are listening to an expanded present."
Alan Watts

 

Molly Hahn buddhadoodles.com

Tuesday, August 5, 2025

What Now?

A new challenge awaits us 
at the beginning of the twenty-first century:
to go beyond fragmentation
to be open to total living and total revolution …
In this era, to become a spiritual inquirer without social consciousness is a luxury that we can ill afford, 
and to be a social activist without a scientific understanding
of the inner workings of the mind is the worst folly. 
Neither approach in isolation has had any significant success …. 
The challenge awaiting us is to go much deeper as human beings, 
to abandon superficial prejudices & preferences
to expand understanding to a global scale, integrating the totality of living, 
and to become aware of the wholeness 
of which we are a manifestation.”

Vimala Thakar
 
 
 "God is a comedian playing to an audience that is too afraid to laugh." 
 
Voltaire
 
 
“The universe is a single living creature that encompasses all living creatures within it.”  
 
Plato
 
 
"... we are all  
different shards of God
all experiencing life so that God could experience everything, 
in every single different way, 
because God wants to experience life as you, and life as me, and life as him, and life as her, so that 
God is having all of his experiences through us.” 

Abby Wynne


"The feeling remains that God is on the journey, too.” 
 
St. Teresa of Avila


Nature is God giving birth to itself."
 
Friedrich Schelling

 

 

 

“To the mystic, every moment is Sacred

 and

 every step is taken on Holy Ground.  

 

Mirabai Starr

 

 

 

SO 

May I remain curious & keep asking myself:

 HOW is EVERY – person / activity / moment – in front of me Sacred?  

HOW can I perceive the Sacred even in people & events that appear so Dark?

 

 

When I change the level of my awareness,
I start attracting a different reality.”

Santon Saint Pierre, French philosopher
 
 

 


Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Take is Easy!

    Above and beyond life's inevitable challenges, we give ourselves a hard time. We CAN reduce our suffering by 95% by NOT getting sucked into unnecessary suffering eg wallowing in & trying to change the PAST, and catastrophizing about & micromanaging the FUTURE. 

    A more advanced practice is "self-inquiry" where we ask ourselves, 'WHO is suffering?' If we really go deep with this open question, we eventually come to realize that we are non other than sparks of the Cosmic Intelligence that dreams this Cosmos into being in the eternal now. So, 

        "All shall be well,
        and all shall be well,
        and all manner of things shall be well."
Julian of Norwich (1342 – 1416) English Christian mystic 

     “Praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow come and go like the wind. To be happy, rest like a giant tree in the midst of them all.” The Buddha

    "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff … and it's ALL Small Stuff!" Richard Carlson 

 

Pure Love

 

Wednesday, July 2, 2025

The Way It Seems to Be

 

    “A very dear friend, who’s passed away some four, five years now, used to say ... that he believed we are all different shards of God, all experiencing life so that God could experience everything, in every single different way, because God wants to experience life as you, and life as me, and life as him, and life as her, so that God is having all of his experiences through us.” 
    
Abby Wynne https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHzxFkdwZwM

 

        "The feeling remains that God is on the journey, too.” St. Teresa of Avila

 
        Nature is God giving birth to itself.Friedrich Schelling
                    "not a direct quote, but captures the essence of Schelling's philosophy, where Nature is not merely a collection of objects but a dynamic, self-creating force connected to the Divine or Absolute. His concept of Nature and the Absolute as a unified, self-unfolding entity, not separate, but rather different expressions of the same underlying reality."                Google's AI

I am that living fiery essence of the divine substance 
that flows in the beauty of the fields. 
I shine on the water; 
I burn in the sun and moon and the stars. 
The mysterious force of the invisible world is mine
I sustain the breath of all living beings. 
I breathe in the grass and in the flowers; 
and when the waters flow like living things, it is I . . 
I am the force that lies hidden in the winds; 
they take their source from me, 
as a man may move because he breathes; 
fire burns by my breast. 
All these live because I am in them 
and am their life. 
I am Wisdom. 
The blaring thunder of the Word 
by which all things were made is mine. 
I permeate all things that they may not die; 
I am life.”


Hildegard of Bingen


        "Nothing human is foreign to me"
attributed to the Roman playwright Terence, essentially means that as a human being, nothing that is part of the human experience is strange or alien to him.
 


"When you practice these holy teachings 
slowly the clouds of sorrow will melt away 
and the sun of wisdom and true joy 
will be shining 
in the clear sky 
of your mind."


Kalu Rinpoche


    “This feeling that Jung had, that if man lived his life ... symbolically, then it was almost as if, what the theologians called God, and my Zulus called M-cooloo-coolo - the first spirit - had passed over some of his power and some of his responsibilities to the human being and that the human being had a God-like task to perform in creation. And the extent to which he performed it, he derived his meaning. That's a very important part of Jung's thinking.”
Sir Laurens van der Post - Author, statesman, London.

"The training ... is to take in God's love
which correctly produces, protects & cultivates all things in Nature  
and assimilates & unites it 
in our own mind & body.”

Morihei Ueshiba O’Sensei – founder of the martial art of Aikido
 

 
        “As our consciousness evolves, we become more attuned to the subtler dimensions of being and our interconnectedness with everything. Ultimately, individual consciousness merges with the Oneness that underpins all of existence, where there is no separation at all – no ‘me,’ no ‘you,’ no other. Oneness is the fundamental fabric of all existence, the essence of what we all Are.” 
        Melinda Edwards. “Psyche & Spirit. How a Psychiatrist Found Divinity through her Lifelong Quest for Truth and her Daughter’s Autism.” 2024.


    "Everyone’s spiritual path will unfold in its own unique way. What we’re doing is allowing ourselves to be opened up to the higher realm, to the divinities, and to the masculine & the feminine divine, but also to its different manifestations. ... So it’s not to try and have an experience that we think we should have in order to have a rich spiritual life. It’s to allow it to come in, and tell us what way it wants to manifest in us, with us, for us, as our guide.” Aedamar Kirrane https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHzxFkdwZwM


    “We might as well stay open-minded & surrender to the endlessness of it.” Francis Carr, in Edward St. Aubyn's 2025 novel, “Parallel Lines.”

 

Van Morrison - "Into the Mystic" 




 

Wednesday, June 18, 2025

Levels of Experience

    One summer night when we were around 14, my best friend Kazimir and I were walking through a park in Montreal near where we lived. We noticed 20 or more people near us all looking upwards. We stopped, looked up, and saw this extraordinary, large, bright white, stationary object overhead. We all stared at it for several minutes. We had no idea what it was, but decided that nobody would believe our description, so we went home and never discussed it.

     Roughly fifty years ago, while a university student working for the summer as an orderly in a large hospital, I was called to help clean up a mess. I arrived to find a tragicomedy unfolding. An elderly, apparently famous gentleman, dressed only in an untied, soiled Johnny shirt, was experiencing explosive diarrhea all over his private hospital room's bathroom. Several hospital staff were helplessly standing around, trying to keep him from slipping & falling into the mess. Only one person was quite beside herself - the gentleman's elderly wife. She was impeccably dressed in black, evening-at-the-opera attire, complete with all the jewellery, black gloves etc. The gentleman himself was impressively peaceful, gently trying to calm his completely distraught wife.

    During that summer in the same hospital, I chatted with a young man who was about to have heart surgery the next day. He was friendly, cheerfully looking forward to enjoying the rest of his life post-op. I wished him well. The next day, I came by to visit, and found his bed made and empty. I asked about him, and was told he had died during surgery.

    "Shit happens," no matter how obsessively we try to control ourselves, others & life in general. If we live long enough, we realize it's just a question of when. And yet we do have freedom, which depends on our perspective, which determines our response

    We can, and I fear many of us do, see each individual unwelcome event in our life as if it were some random or even intentional cruelty of chance, Nature or the Divine. We can keep count of these, and rationalize holding a grudge against the meaningless of life, cruelty of Nature, or malevolence of God. This is our noisy ego's last desperate, failed attempt to hang onto its own relevance. It is the ego / false self / separate self that goes through Kübler-Ross' 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression & acceptance

    While our wiser 'part' / Self is aware of the bigger picture and our intimate connection with everyone & everything, our Oneness.
   
"There’s a crucial 6th stage to the grieving process: meaning. ... we acknowledge that although for most of us grief will lessen in intensity over time, it will never end. But if we allow ourselves to move fully into this crucial & profound sixth stage – meaning – it will allow us to transform grief into something else, something rich & fulfilling." David Kessler. “Finding Meaning: The Sixth Stage of Grief.” Scribner, 2019. 

    But the ego does not give up pretending to be in complete control easily! One ploy is taking on the persona of "the liminoid ... when you start to take pride in the breakdowns, trouble & commotion of your life, because you think ... ‘it makes you windswept and interesting.’" Martin Shaw  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vpi06B0mvSI&list=PLb7eXq8MJBchKf73SDzbcMyD3i-mhjJsn&index=2
    When all else fails, the ego's last act is to PROUDLY cling to anything: Charlton Heston, spokesperson for the National Rifle Association (NRA), "I'll give you my gun when you pry it from my cold, dead hands" and Dylan Thomas' call to the dying, "Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

    Our Self knows better, and we can hear our own wisdom when the ego isn't yelling.

    But we require a lifetime of intentional training to recognize how thoroughly we have been conditioned by our stunningly shallow society to abandon our true nature and instead adopt a robotic level of self-centered left-hemisphere dominance.

    The training, the practice we need is one by which we progressively remember our true nature, who we truly are, and integrate this more & more consistently, into daily life
    "
Growing pains" are inevitable on any learning journey, especially a spiritual one which requires us to release compulsive self-centeredness. It's probably easier for an obese life-long 'couch potato' to become an elite athlete, than for the average person who considers him/herself open-minded and 'good' to become moderately spiritual
    These
 2 very recent interviews shed useful light on this process :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkX-Dc6WRcs

https://batgap.com/jurgen-ziewe-2/

 

The Jeff Healey Band - "While My Guitar Gently Weeps"

Sunday, June 8, 2025

Our Best is Needed

    "The question we need to ask ourselves is whether there is any place we can stand in ourselves where we can look at all that's happening around us without freaking out, where we can be quiet enough to really hear our predicament, and where we can begin to find ways of acting that are at least not contributing to further destabilization.” Ram Dass

    We can easily remember Ram Dass' words with the help of these two short phrases:
    In the wonderful TV series, "New Amsterdam," Dr. Max Goodwin's response to even the most challenging situations was to ask, "How can I help?"
    And if we can't help, then: "At least do harm."
 
    What do we value most in a human being? What are the best attributes of people we most admire
    Decency, honesty, trustworthiness, reliability, kindness, acceptance, humility, courage & nurturing stand out for me.
 
    Aren't these the very same characteristics that lie deep within us all? These attributes - sparks of the Divine - we all potentially or actually manifest under optimal conditions, when we feel sufficiently safe & brave enough to lower our hardened defenses, and be authentic - our true Self
    We can easily differentiate between feeling rigid with fear, guarded, aggressive, enraged, versus when we feel safe, relaxed, glowing with an open-heart & open mind
    BUT what's really valuable is learning to recognize how we habitually remain armored, at least somewhat tight & hyper-vigilant even when there's NO "clear and present danger" AND how this constantly corrodes all our perceptions, thinking, speech & behaviors
    ONLY by repeatedly recognizing & releasing this default survivalist, separate-self, adversarial illusion are we able to gradually stop sabotaging our own quality of life, and the quality of life of all those around us.

    What clues do we have, that we're lost in the default survivalist, separate-self, adversarial illusion? We feel physically tight, strained, anxious, impatient, 'time poverty,' 'empty' or 'lacking' something, desperate to 'keep busy,' competitive, aggressive. OR we may feel 'lack luster,' no energy, no interests, no plans, hopeless, downOR we may feel constantly anxious, afraid & upset by a wide variety of things, and assume that it's these that are making us sick. But fear of living AND fear of dying are common. Meditation teacher Ezra Bayda calls it the "anxious quiver of being."

    Becoming clearly aware of what's really going on, here & now occurs only in stillness, not by "keeping busy" chasing after stuff, nor running away from other stuff. Perhaps that's why we fear to, and rarely stop & look carefully. Our compulsive activity - like furiously riding a rocking horse - gives the illusion of "getting somewhere." HOWEVER, intentionally being aware of what's really here & now gradually tames our fears, and intimately engages us with the awesome mystery of Reality.

    When I change the level of my awareness, I start attracting a different reality.” Santon Saint Pierre, French philosopher

    Living in the default survivalist, separate self, adversarial illusion feels bad & harms myself & everyone around me
    I CAN learn to detect this default way of being, repeatedly let it go, relax, open my heart-mind, and ALLOW my true naturedecency, honesty, trustworthiness, reliability, kindness, acceptance, humility, courage & nurturing - to shine, which radically changes EVERYTHING - our perceptions, thinking, speech & behaviors. It's a lifelong adventure.
     

Passenger - "When We Were Young"