How strongly you identify with your particular take on religion / spirituality only becomes crystal-clear when being questioned in a thoroughly intelligent, reasonable, and well-meaning manner.
If the best you can do is an emotionally anguished, irrational counterattack, then you're actually defending your EGO. This may be a "shipwreck" moment - a "crisis in faith". The short catchy slogans of your religious sect are no longer enough.
Your current worldview / self-concept may now need to be upgraded to a more mature model - one that better matches reality. You may need to go DEEPER in your own religion - membership alone is like being a fan of a sports team instead of engaging as a serious athlete. OR, maybe it's time to find a religion that better matches your current level of psychosocialspiritual development.
Going deeper or moving on is a normal, recurrent event for normally maturing, healthy human beings, though sadly many of us neglect or even actively resist the process. One reason for remaining stuck is the fear of being shunned by your current group.
But perhaps the key aspect of maturation is leaving behind dogmas that give you a sense of fear & claustrophobia, and move towards love & freedom.
"The small man builds cages for everyone he knows. While the sage keeps dropping keys all night long for the beautiful, rowdy prisoners." Hafiz
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