Okay, you don't 'have to,' BUT I sincerely recommend you do, because this is a surprisingly simple but not easy "game changer."
1) Become aware of your Mood or overall Attitude. Unless you feel:Open & Curious to ANYTHING that might happen, Ready to Learn & Evolve, and Grateful to be Alive, then DROPYOUR BORING, DEADENING, SELF-DEFEATING MOOD. You've done shit mood & "ordinary unhappiness" (or worse) to death. It's time to LIVE!
2) FRESH START EVERY MORNING! Anything, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHINGcan happen today!None of us have a clue how our day will go when we first open our eyes. YET, a pessimistic or anxious, or one of our other pet shit moods loves to rush in to pathologically distort our attitude for the whole day. This is our fear-based choice akin to people choosing to return to a familiar abusive home rather than 'risk' a new safe house. BE BRAVE! Admit you don't have a clue about the future, NOR can you micromanage the future. The best you can be is PRESENT: Not Knowing, Relaxed yet Alert & Energized, Ready to Learn & Evolve, and Grateful to be Alive.
3) PRESENCE This is relatively rare, YET simple, ordinary, AND feels joyful. Have you ever been somewhere with so many overwhelming noises that you can't think clearly? For most, the source of the overwhelming noises is our own "self-talk" - the ongoing dialogue from our small self. We, as individuals, "need" a "noisy ego" like we as a society, "need" a narcissistic dictator taking a wrecking ball to our world ie like we need a hole in the head. 95% of our self-talk is useless or harmful. We CAN ignore self-talk, and CAN direct our awareness ANYWHERE we choose. CHOOSE Open Awareness! Open Awareness is a meditation practice that's also the ideal way to be 24/7. When we're not narrowly focused on a specific task such as cooking a meal, or driving, our awareness is wide open to & monitoring all of our sensory inputs, in the present moment. Unless we specifically choose to narrow our awareness down, we remain open, present. This is peaceful & joyfulbecause it's soeffortless & freeing - free from our infernal neurotic, fearful, anxious self-talk. TREAT yourself to this experience - even for a minute - to appreciate the miraculous peace. This peaceful 'liminal space' feels energized at the same time, a bit like a helicopter that has risen off the ground hovering, yet able to take off in any direction when it chooses to do so.
This 'everyday miracle' is YOURS to enjoy, yours to LIVE. It's your birthright!You WILL kick yourself if you delay letting go of needlessly living in 'ordinary unhappiness' or worse.
small self vs Self
St. Michael Defeating Satan (c. 1633) by Guido Reni
“Contemplation is being open to all of the reality we can stand.” Richard Rohr
YES. AND we're more deeply conditioned than we realize, to quickly, instinctively say NO! to anything unpleasant, uncomfortable, painful, distressing, and even 'different' than what we're used to! ALOT of today's reality is far from likeableandvery difficult to accept! So mostly unconsciously, we tend to shrink back & shrivel up, further & further away from the full spectrum of reality.
“The smart way to keep people passive & obedient is to strictly limit the spectrum of acceptable opinion, but allow very lively debate within that spectrum. That gives people the sense that there's free thinking going on, while all the time the presuppositions of the system are being reinforced by the limits put on the range of the debate.” Noam Chomsky, “How the World Works”
Arigid defensive posture - whether self & or externally imposed - imprisons us in a small, narrow, constricting, supposedly 'safe' box. 'Ordinary unhappiness' or much worse, is the inevitable result. We feel trapped, like a caterpillar stuck in a cocoon. Fearful defensiveness easily turns into offensiveness, and much worse - the violent polarization in politics, race, religion, social media, etc & the endless slaughter of wars that we witness on the news daily. Brian McLaren's 45-minute overview from a Developmental Psychology / Mystical Christian perspective is imhoexcellent :https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9TrhL8VOUB0. Kelly Noonan's 2017 (1hr 46min) documentary "Heal" on Netflix is also imho very applicable & well worth watching : https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5239942/
“Of all the ways you can limit yourself, your own self-definition is the most powerful.” Michael Crichton
"Letting go of our suffering is the hardest work we will ever do. It is also the most fruitful. To healmeansto meet ourselves in a new way - in the newness of each moment where all is possible and nothing is limited to the old." Stephen Levine
By saying YES! to ALL of life's 10,000 joysAND10,000 sorrowswefree ourselves, spread ourwings, and fly!
Mindfulness practice - and really all deep spiritual practice - is about "cultivating a certain kind of intimacy with the core of our being." Jon Kabat-Zinn PhD Gradually we learn to practice remembering, feeling, recognizing & re-connecting withwho / what we can sense we are in the depths of our being – our true self – love. "Wisdom comes when we live from the heart. It’s the recognition that love is the only power that is moving any of this." Jac O’Keeffe
“A mystic sees beyond the illusion of separateness into the intricate web of life in which all things are expressions of a single Whole. You can call this web ‘God, the Tao, the Great Spirit, the Infinite Mystery, Mother or Father,’ but it can be known only as love.” Joan Z. Borysenko PhD
THIS is the mystics' level of consciousness, expressed in Rumi's "The Guest House" :
"This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they're a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight. The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing,and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond."
“I share poetry when speaking about mystery, because as a great poet said, ‘You can’t get the news from poetry, but men and women die every day from lack of what is found there.’ Poetry connects us to the mystery. This is in the same spirit as Buddhist texts that begin with the words, ‘O Nobly Born, remember who you really are, you are the sons and daughters of the awakened ones.’ You are in the lineage of those who have awakened before you. Look directly at the mystery of love and existence. It is your birthright to remember freedom and awakening. ‘If I had influence with the good fairy who’s supposed to preside over the birth of all children, I should ask her gift to each child in the world a sense of wonder so indestructible it would last throughout their life.’ Rachel Carson This is one of the gifts of poetry. We can meditate to quiet the mind, we can calm ourselves, we can de-stress, and we can see in new ways. And with this mindful presence, poetry invites a sense of wonder andmystery, and with that, an opening to love.” JackKornfieldhttps://jackkornfield.com/poetry-of-awakening-navigating-the-great-mystery/?mc_cid=f635f4b32e&mc_eid=cd718e6a49
"Imagine love wants to see your true face Imagine that nothing matters except love Imagine love as you Imagine love as everything you’ve ever given attention to Imagine love abides in difference Imagine love as a force that gives us meaning Imagine love abhors a vacuum Imagine love wants to know love Imagine everything matters because love is real Imagine love is a power uncontainable & inconceivable Imagine love as language, as selfless action, as water, as purslane, as voles, as dragonflies, as wind Try to imagine a love able to rise whole into thin air, invisible to our eyes holding our entire awareness on the thin new blade of a brightness soon to come Imagine the imperfections of love that love adores Imagine love imagining your radical truth & trusting your courage your vision your journey to recognize your self in vastness." Poem by Qayyum Johnson
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek & find all of the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” Helen Schueman
Bold title! IF one is more inclined toward the academic / knowledgethandeep understanding / direct experience, then one's meditation practice may never start or will tend to gradually diminish! Along with that, the richness of one's life may peak at "ordinary unhappiness." This is true EVEN IFone's past includes a long track
record of serious meditation practice, including many longish silent
meditation retreats, many years of teaching meditation, and great earnestness in seeking ultimate Truth! All this is to emphasize the PIVOTAL, PRACTICAL IMPORTANCE of REGULAR WISE MEDITATION PRACTICE. You CANNOT replacePRACTICEwith anything else - any amount of reading, thinking, conversation, teaching or writing, any more than you can replace actually skiing by reading, thinking, talking, teaching or writing about it!
Below is the full transcript of Eckhart Tolle'sSUPERB MEDITATION GUIDANCE - savor it slowly & please PRACTICE this rare gift :
“Meditation is really all about becoming still, without going to sleep. It’s not so much about becoming still, but being still. Becoming would imply that you have to go somewhere or do something. Being is already here & now.
And in a sane life, a conscious life, a harmonious life, there needs to be a balancebetweenbecomingandbeing. Becoming is doing things, getting things done and so on in this world, dealing with things, creating things, achieving things. And being is about awareness of the present moment, which after all is all you ever have. Whatever you achieve through becoming in the future eventually turns into the present moment.
So as I speak to you, the meditation, if we even want to call it that, it’s perhaps best to forget about the word, as I speak, be aware of the silence or the stillness between the words. Being aware means just notice that it’s there. It’s very simple. So you notice that in addition to the words, there’s another dimension that is easily overlooked, and that’s the dimension of stillness, which we could also call space or spaciousness. So when you notice that there are two, so to speak, two dimensions here, the dimension of words which you hear and which then become thoughts in your head, and the dimension of no-thing, spaciousness. And so you just notice, that’s all that’s required, that there is that dimension also present. So you notice it in between words, and even behind the words, so to speak. Now when you notice it, what happens inside you? What does it mean to notice the stillness, to be aware of the stillness? (Sense / feel it, without words.)
It means you have become still inside. It means you’re conscious, but at this moment, you’re not thinking, but you’re alert, present, completely here, but not thinking. So that’s the realizationof the dimension of depthswithin you.
And without that realization, your entire life is a surface phenomenon. You run around on the surface of being, never satisfied for long, frustrated, almost aways feeling there’s something important missing in your life. And of course, there is. But you can’t find it on the surface of your life – the horizontal dimension, looking here & there. You have to, notbecome still, but realize that that dimension of stillness is already in you. And another word to describe it is to say it’s thisalert presence that you can sense right now.
And you may find the mind wanting to come in, from time to time, and say something about it, or even deny it, or say, ‘I don’t understand it,’ or say, ‘What’s the point? I have other problems to worry about. I’ll become still when I have solved all the other problems.’
But why most people experience life as a succession of problems, and ultimately a frustrating experience, is because they haven’t discovered that dimension – the most vital thingorno-thingto discover within yourself. That stillness is also power. It's the Source, not only of yourself, it is the Source of life. And nothing creative can ever come into your life if you’re not connected with that.
Whenever you feel joy - for moments perhaps - in your daily life, or a moment of loving interaction with another human being or an animal, or when you suddenly see beauty somewhere and you go, ‘Oh!’, now without you necessarily being aware of it, there has arisen a moment of stillness in you, if only three seconds, or perhaps a bit more. And it’s only there that the joy of life arises, or the ability to really connect with another human being.
Without it, without the stillness, you have onlyyour conceptual mind – thinking, thinking, thinking – and you relate to the world through the conceptual mind – judging, thinking, judging, interpreting continuously, the inner self-talk, the monologue, which may become a dialogue in your head. ‘You’re no good!’ says one voice. The other one says, ‘But I’m trying, I’m trying,’ whatever the voice in your head is doing. And then you try to relate to another human being through that. And before long, concepts come in, judgments come in. So there’s always a sense of insufficiency, of lack, of not enough. There’s alwaysconflict arising when the dimension of stillness is not operating in your life at all, or only very briefly. Yes, it’s good if you can occasionally experience joy and a sense of aliveness and see beauty and a loving feeling towards another human being, not egoic (transactional) love, but goodwill flowing out (spontaneously) towards another human being (ie unconditional love). Yes, it’s wonderful, but if it’s only for brief moments, then yes, at least that keeps you going. But it could be much deeper. It could operate in your life continuously, so that you never lose touch with it.
But the first step is realizing that it’s there always. It’s already here. In the little book, ‘Stillness Speaks’ I wrote, ‘You are never more truly yourself than when you are still.’ And you might think that’s a strange statement. Most people when they talk about ‘myself,’ talk about their personal history, and their personal problems, and their life situation. When they talk about ‘myself,’ that’s what they refer to. They refer to my relationships, my work situation, my financial situation, my home situation, my health, me and my life. And of course, all that is the case. But, is that who youreally are?” "Awakening to Stillness: Eckhart Tolle's Path to Conscious Living -
Guided Meditation"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjMeG6K9Fdw
Another excellent way of feeling or sensing into, directly experiencingtrue Selfbeyond our worn-out words(narrative-self - "the story of me, myself & I," hurt child, small separate self, personal self, noisy ego, etc) is Helen Hamilton's 30-minute guided Self-Inquiry exercise: https://www.helenhamilton.org/uploads/4/0/0/9/4009977/an_introduction_to_self-inquiry.mp3
"Awakening to Stillness: Eckhart Tolle's Path to Conscious Living -
Guided Meditation"
There are many ways of expressing "separate self": small self, narrative-self, ordinary mind, personal mind, pain body, egocentricity, noisy ego, fearful hurt child, etc. All of these reveal aspects of the common, and for many, the default self-concept / worldview. This worldview is fear-based; conflates survival of the ego with survival of the body; assumes we're all "alone in a competitive, hostile world" where one's external circumstances rigidly, mechanically determine quality of life; where perfect control of one's external environment means everything to the left-hemisphere-dominant mind. But since perfect control is never achievable, "ordinary unhappiness" is as good as it gets. Nevertheless, when anxiety, fear & unhappiness dominate, this ordinary mind rules - much like how during emergencies, the fight, flight, freeze instinct kicks in; and also like how during times of war, right-wing dictators find it easiest to cling to power.
“No one can tell you whatawakening is. I could use a lot of words to describe what it’s like. I could say it’s kind of like wakening from a dream. Suddenly you’re not who you think you are. You are not the dream character, the person or personality that you’ve been playing all your life.” Dan Schmidt
Nevertheless, "Big Mind" has been experienced&pointed towards in many ways & words, such as: Awakening, Awareness, true self, Self, Universal Consciousness, Source, Buddha nature, the Divine, high-plateau experience, enlightenment, Christ consciousness, God, Fundamental Wellbeing, Ongoing Non-Symbolic Experience, Juingong, etc.One of the better books describing how people - whom Martin calls "Finders"- from around the world have experienced this is:Dr. Jeffery A. Martin. “The Finders.” Integration Press, 2019.
“Every word, every image used for God is a distortion more than a description.” Anthony de Mello SJ "Another name for God is Surprise!" Brother David Steindl-Rast “As soon as you look at the world through an ideology you are finished. No reality fits an ideology. Life is beyond that. … That is why people are always searching for a meaning to life… Meaning is only found when you go beyond meaning. Life only makes sense when you perceive it as mystery and it makes no sense to the conceptualizing mind.” Anthony de Mello SJ
Those who experience higher states of consciousness for sustained periods reportextraordinary levels of wellbeing. Regardless of geographic location, ethnicity, spirituality / religiosity, education etc, there is remarkable similarity in "Finders'" descriptions. More & more such people are sharing their experiences in serious, in-depth interviews: https://batgap.com/ and http://conscious.tv/ and https://cac.org/podcast/turning-to-the-mystics/ and https://www.guruviking.com/ etc.
Finders “have moved past their moments of doubt & frustration. They have found exactly what everyone else has been seeking their entire life. For them, each moment feels perfectly okay at a deep & fundamental level, regardless ofactual life circumstances. There individuals do not dwell on past regrets or glories, nor worries about future hopes & dreams. They live peacefully in the present, while everyone else around them seems intent on trying to escape it. They’ve not only found fulfillment but a deep & fundamental sense of wellbeing.” Dr. Jeffery A. Martin. “The Finders.” Integration Press, 2019.
As soon as we notice that we're confused & suffering, as if we were alone, struggling to survive in a hostile world, Zen advises that we "take the backward step" and ask ourselves, "Who is confused? Who is suffering?Who is struggling?" This "self-inquiry" practice will increasingly serve to snap us out ofthe illusion of being this small "separate self" - the pawn in some cruel cosmic game, and back to our true self, ONE with everyone & everything, the Source,Universal Consciousness.
Gradually, as wellbeing becomes stabilized, Finders can opt to shift into a "quiet ego" ("doing mode") to perform certain practical tasks, then effortlessly return to Awareness ("being mode") again. As an aside, Iain McGilchrist's right-hemisphere dominanceaccommodates both of these (while left-hemisphere dominance is equivalent to "noisy ego" - much higher levels of self-centeredness). Martin's book is quite detailed, providing insight into Finders' profound qualitative change in perspective, self-concept & worldview after which they (other serious meditators, mystics & saints) say / write seemingly opaque, confusing & even paradoxical statements, such as this well-known unequivocal declaration:
"All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well." Julian of Norwich (1342 – 1416) English Christian mystic
Just asBessel Van Der Kolk's excellent book, “The Body Keeps the Score. Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma” helps us look back and understand self-compassionately, the effects of past traumas on our lives,Jeffery Martin's valuable book, "The Finders" helps us roughly locate where we are now on our spiritual journey and provides an important map for the joyful trails awaiting us.
“But by my love and hope I beseech thee: cast not away the hero in thy soul! Keep sacred thy highest hope!”Friedrich Nietzsche “Thus spoke Zarathustra”
Advanced spiritual practitioners are well aware that we all have two, very different operating systems. The egoic separate self is one most of us habitually contract into under stress & tend to stabilize in, even without stress. The other is the open, spacious, peaceful, timeless, silent, unitive state of awareness or true self that is always there, but for most is usually hidden, veiled over by our egoic self's fearful strivingto control our lives for survival & reproduction. "When people restrain themselves out of fear, theirlives are by necessity diminished." Mihály Csíkszentmihályi PhD
Oursmall, egoic self (& it's constant, very loud spokesperson, "ordinary mind's self talk") can only see consensual dualistic relative reality - of adversarial relationships, competition to get to the top, which even includes war (rape, plunder & murder). Small self's / ordinary mind's natural byproduct is dualism & rigid materialism - where ego can, or soon will be able to control everything ("promissory materialism" - a joke for everyone, except materialists). Ourtrue self, when we don't drown it out by setting off our alarms, experiences ultimate reality. We all experience this occasionally, at least fleetingly. We are most likely to experience our innate authenticity & ultimate realitywhen we feel relaxed, open to & engaged with the flow of life.
PsychologistCsíkszentmihályi researched the "flow" state & summarized it as: "being completely involved in an activity for its own sake. The ego falls away. Time flies. Every action, movement, & thought follows inevitably from the previous one, like playing jazz. Your whole being is involved, and you're using your skills to the utmost." Mihály Csíkszentmihályi PhD An important component of "flow" was autotelicity - performing acts because they are intrinsically rewarding, rather than to achieve external goals;
learning to enjoy situations that most others mind find miserable; associated with curiosity, persistence, & humility.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mihaly_Csikszentmihalyi Despite the formality of scientific language, "flow" seems remarkably similar if not identical to a common experience shared by serious meditators, mystics, saints, extreme adventurers, surgeons, artists of every description, and all who intentionally spend time being intimately engaged with whatever the present moment holds for them. A very impressive real-life example of this is detailed in the book : Michael A. Singer “The Surrender Experiment. My Journey into Life’s Perfection,” Harmony, 2015. Intimacyisa direct, heart-to-heart expression of unconditional love(nothing to do withreward / personal gain ie not transactional.)
The huge practical problem in our lives is that most of us live as if a fire alarm was constantly ringing, resulting in our small, separate mind running & ruining our lives, and completely obscuring our authentic, true self.
“Once I stopshaping reality into a theatrical performance withmyself at its center, mindfulness allows the world to surprise me. The universe becomes delightfully open-ended.” Belden C. Lane
"When the mind appears, realitydisappears. When the minddisappears, realityappears.” Bodhidharma
So our small mind, by way of constant "self talk," is constantly telling us how uncomfortable we are, and reminding us of our preferences: all that we "must have", and all that we "must avoid", in order to survive & be happy. Fixating on these attachments keeps us constantly self-centered, stressed & striving to be somewhere else, do something else, become someone elseRATHER THANbe intimately engagedwith whatever the present moment presents us. “By giving up ourattachments in life, we open ourselves up to more opportunities, more spontaneity, and more chances to cultivate deeper connections with others.” Lama Tsomo
“The mind is a wonderful gift, but the voice inside our heads ("self-talk") can also be a never-ending source of suffering. That’s the last thing we need when we’ve already got so much of the outside world challenging us. We can spend our lives trying to change those external conditions to ‘be and feel OK’ — when the real problemis what’s going on inside. The solution? Surrender – the willingness to let go. To realize that ultimately, our thoughts, emotions, & even our body are not who we are. We are the indwelling consciousnesswitnessing it all.” Michael A. Singer
Much of our repetitive thinking is about escaping discomfort by getting some things & avoiding others. Our life experience has surely taught us by now that no amount of getting & avoiding can lift us out of "ordinary unhappiness." Buddhism teaches that this obsessive self-centered actually causes unnecessary suffering. Surely we're ready to start inhabiting our far more evolved, true self - often just referred to as "Self." "The thoughts change but not you. Let go of the passing thoughts and hold on to the unchangingSelf." Sri Ramana Maharshi
So what am I learning, if ever so slowly? It's ridiculously easy & common to remain overwhelmed by our past traumas & resultant reactivities, which guarantees continuous unnecessary suffering. Though many assume that this is 'just the way life is,' and 'nothing can be done about it,' that's just a 'helplessness & hopelessness' slumpwe all need to get past, from time to time. Even in the absolutely most horrible cases of suffering, it's been shown that it's best to let go of our 'hurt child' identity, and instead direct our energies toward embodying our 'wise elder' identity (transpersonal Self or divine identity), and thereby nurtureourselves & others so we may all thrive ie be the best version of ourselves ie true self or Self. Beingauthentic is our only way to peace & joy, that is independent oflife's constant ups & downs, aging, sickness & death.
Finding the True Essence of You (Self) - Eckhart Tolle Explains (20min)
“The truth is a difficult concept to define... We live in an era where it's becoming more and more difficult to
determine the facts and what's fake.” Gary Schwartz
Most, perhaps all of us, are born with a deep intuitive knowing of reality that is indescribablybeautiful,inconceivably vast, and is therefore impossible to put into words.
But society conditions us to agree on a greatly-simplified model of reality that most of us can understand, describe, work with & manipulate - "consensus reality." Gradually, most of us forget reality and start to assume that our simplified working model (consensus reality ie our "common sense" understanding) is not just a dumbed-down model, but actually real.
The other major distorting influence on most of us is that of trauma. The combined affect of consensus reality & trauma is so potent, that as Anais Nin observed, we can't seethings as they are. We only see things as we are - ie what's left behind after trauma & forgetting ourtrue nature. "... we live in the distortion ... " Thomas Hüblhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4Ktsi3KX2I
The greater our distorting influences, the more vehemently we defend the accuracy of our perception AND the more rigidlywe resistopening our mind-heart!
“What you resist not only persists, but will grow in size.” Carl Jung
Learning about mystics, saints and the increasing numbers of people who are serious about Truth, intrigues us by resonating with that deepest intuitionwe still retain about reality. It can't be directly expressed in words, but only pointed towards poetically, by way of metaphors, stories, music, etc.
“Half of any person is confused and bewildered and way off The Path.
Half!
The other half is dancing in some Invisible Joy.” Rumi
As to which half of our self we choose to inhabit has most to do with which of two, very different ways of being we trust more: fear - or - love. Me alone against the world - or - pulling together for our collective well-being. As long as we remain convinced that life & the world are basically hostile to ourselves & our loved ones, we remain fearful, tight, aggressive & alone. This sad, hurt, angry mood is common, especially in old age, when we finally realize that craving for material possessions will never satisfy our deepest hunger for realizing what's true - reality.
Many of us would deeply benefit from BOTH psychotherapy AND a deep spiritual path. It's easier to wallow in simmering discontent,ending life in bitter cynicism - "ordinary unhappiness."
BUT if we let go of craving, and open-up & lovingly nurture those around us, we are re-born to be who we've always been.
“Walking the path toward the complete ending of clinging & suffering is the noblest thing a person can do. It opens the fist of the mind, and allows a person to walk in the world with gift-bestowing hands.” Gil Fronsdal